Saturday, May 9, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
40, it is just a number. Yes it is the age of me as of today, 40 years since my mother gave birth to me. Do I feel 40? Not sure what that means and often find myself thinking about it. People seem to make it a big deal so in turn this makes you feel like you have to make it a big deal. I have gone over this post several times since I first wrote it. My sister-in-law told me the other day that 40 is the new 30........the more I think about it, the more she is right(love ya Deb).
I remember when I turned 30, it was when we lived in Hawaii. I had some sort of mental block after turning 30 where I did not seem to remember how old I was each year and had to calculate it out off of the year I was born. I guess it bothered me, but again, it was just a number.
I can say that my husband and I experienced a lot before we decided to have a child. In fact, for most of our married life, I thought I was not going to have children. We traveled a lot, lived in Maui after we got married, moved back to Connecticut and both had established new careers. Then one day it dawned on me, after calculating out from my birth year that I was 35, maybe we should rethink about having a child. I had no regrets on not having done things I could have done, we did more than I would have ever dreamed of. I never thought I would have ever gone to India or even Australia. Having a child would be a new chapter in our lives. My mom and my husbands mother both had us when they were in their early 20's, where as majority of my friends are just starting to have kids, even some not even at that point. When you wait to have children later in life, it is not any easier. Planning is tossed out the window. I am one of those people who would like to believe that eventually Darwinism will take over and some time in the future, the prime birth age will move from the 20's to the 30's. Not in our life time, if this were to even happen. BTW, my former OBGYN thought I was crazy when I told her this. But, she also thought I was crazy calling her up at 10pm at night complaining of bad indigestion at 8 months pregnant saying to me "Just take more pepcid and stop in the office the next morning". Yea......preeclampsia and forced into labor the next day, thankfully without her. She apologized when she saw me AFTER I gave birth, I have not seen her again.
Now I am 40.....along with many of my friends whom I have known as far back as grade school. What is next? Maybe a different career and another child, I think I have plenty of time for both. Community seems to be more important to me than ever, must be because I am really settling in to my town and want to contribute as much as I can. I found myself not having to count back from my birth year this time, but thinking forward. What use to be important to me, is not any more. I am not perfect, never said I was, I know my faults. I'm sentimental, may be a little old fashioned in some ways, will bend over backwards for family and friends. I have done good deeds that I know many would not take the time to do. These things will not change for me, only my age, after all...it is just a number.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Today is the last day of being in my 30's, it has been a turbulent past two weeks of emotional ups and downs. How fitting that the weather is the best today of all week, must be a sign. Tomorrow's post will be more of a reflection and as for today, I will just enjoy my last day of the 30's era.
We are now on week two of no pacifier. No surprise it has had it's ups and downs. My daughter has only asked for her pacifier about four times which I think is very good, and it has been when she was tired or bored. I can say that she will be ready by the winter for moving out of the crib and into a bed, I think this has pushed her into the next phase. What has come out from this situation is no naps and sleeping through the night. By sleeping through the night I mean not waking up looking for her pacifier. What was in the beginning at least 45 minutes of crying is maybe about 5-10 minutes at the most, and trying to get me to come in and put her blanket on her since she purposely tosses it off. What a smart cookie! I am hoping that this will also pass. The new bed sheets were a big hit since she was the one to choose for her bed, and keeping her routine the same helped. Would I do another pacifier if I had another child? As much as I would like to say no, probably yes. I think it would be harder with a thumb than with a material item and I would do it earlier.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Saturday we decided to plant the vegetable garden about two-three weeks earlier than normal. The reason we wait until practically Memorial Day weekend is often we get a frost or just rainy cold weather, killing plants or not allowing for growth. Mold also can occur with cool rainy weather. Of course this coming week is suppose to be in the 50's, rainy, gloomy, wait we normally see in April.
We have still a small portion of the garden to plant, with beets, corn and onions. A benefit to planting this early is now I do not have to worry about planting during Memorial Day weekend or falling on a weekend with a Yankee game.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
We had several choices and what I wanted of course was not what she wanted, it is her bed after all and Hello Kitty was not top on the choice(darn) but Dora was(double darn). I bought the twin sheet set, in hopes to use it when we transition to a twin bed. At least the design was kind of cute with the flowers. Although as you can see from the picture, it is like having a life size child in the bed on her pillow with her!
I made the bed during the day, had her go in it and let her know she did not have to go to sleep but just check out her new bedding. She was excited and loved the pictures, making up stories to where Dora was going with Boots. I also splurged and bought her two sets of Dora pajamas, again something I probably would never have done, I tend to ignore the character pajamas.
When it came time for bed, she was still not that receptive but not as bad as the previous nights, only to fuss for about 15 minutes, not 45 minutes! I'll take it. Let's see how we go from here.